Beauty in Life

A friend shared this video with me this morning. I needed it. Maybe you do 
too. There's hope all around us. Love you all, my friends!!

Miracle Waiting in the Wings

Barbara didn't exactly tell me what I wanted to hear, prayed to hear. As of late my prayers have definitely been taken up five notches and are more like pleadings now. It's humbling. I can almost touch God.

I've been praying that the joint pain in my right pointer finger, which has all the RA symptoms, would really just be the infection and parasites and Strep G that are in all my other joints. But when I asked Barbara to look at that finger specifically, the computer clearly said RA. My faith is often like our eyes when we're starving and pile our plates high with more food than we could ever swallow. My faith likes to accept every challenge fearlessly, but it doesn't know what patience means. So when Barbara told me it was RA, it was almost like a slap in the face. I've been so, so healthy the past couple months. Shouldn't I be better by now?

But now that I've had time to reflect, I feel like Heavenly Father is telling me, "I know you think you know what you're capable of, but Katie, I'm about to show you that you are capable of so much more." And even more powerfully He's saying, "Watch what I can do. If you'll let me, I'll work an even mightier miracle for you. You haven't seen nothin' yet." I trust Him, I do. He's healed me so many times before that I can never doubt His power, but this is to a new height. I'm wondering if He wants me to prove Him to the point that he lets me see the physical affects of RA so that He can heal me, change me visibly. It makes me heart ache because of the love He has for me and ache because I feel like a little child afraid to jump off the diving board. I guess we'll just have to see what He has in store.

PS: The most beautiful sun is making my backyard radiate and shimmer. It wants me to come out and swing for a minute and pick the pretty purple wildflowers growing through the grass. It doesn't even care that I'm still in my pajamas.

Today's Point Spectrum

+50 pts. Getting to see a boy named Adam one more time.
+19 pts. Completing final exam #1 without breaking a sweat.

-50 pts. Seeing a boy named Adam one last time.

+75 pts. Someone mowing our jungle while I was at said final!! (You could lie down in some areas and no one could see you.)
+5 pts. The fridge being dark and all the digital clocks being blank when I got home.
+15 pts. Remembering the whole neighborhood is dark too, although the power company did threaten to permanently turn off our power today if we didn't call them (but Leigh did—thank you, Leigh).
+2 pts. Almost crying because all the wonderful foods I wanted to make required electricity.
+6 pts. Eating a spinach and lettuce sandwich. (Hey, I'm still an amateur when it comes to having a variety of raw sandwich-worthy condiments on hand.)
+44 pts. Declaring avocado my replacement mayo. It spreads much better and is all natural.
+0 pts. Hitting my head against the desk repeatedly (i.e., Studying for my statistics final).
+166 pts. so far. I'd say it's a pretty good day.